Dear Me..

I'm stealing this idea from Busy Bee Lauren... who is hilarious. So don't think I'm all cool and came up with this myself. MMMkay?

Dear Me,

Remember that one time when you fainted at work? And then the next day it felt like your body had been trampled by the talons of a Tyrannosaurus Rex? Well hey. Don't do that anymore. Okay?

Love, Me.

Dear Me,

Remember that one time when you hadn't showered for almost 4 days AGAIN?? Hey, you should shower more. Just saying. And remember when you finally showered and you saw yourself naked for the first time in a while and your brain said to you, "You're not as hot as you used to be."? You should work on that. By not eating fatty foods so much.. and maybe moving once in a while... and not eating after 10 pm. Yeah. That would help.

Thanks, Me.

Dear Me,

Remember when you wanted to go on dates with boys? If you talk to boys that would help. And give you fun stories to blog about. Do it!

Obviously, Me.

Dear Me,

You should clean your room.

You're filthy, Me.

Dear Me,

You should start reading your scriptures every day again. It makes you happy! Don't you remember? Yeah, well you should. It's awesome. And it makes Jesus happy.

-Me.

Dear Words of Wisdom for the Day,

You are cool. People like you. Or so meself has been told. Keep up the good work. And for today you will be that sometimes it is so awesome to talk to yourself through letters.. to yourself. Which reminds me of a really really funny story that I will tell after I finish this letter.

Sincerely, Me.

This one time.. I was best friends with a girl named Brittany. And we both liked this boy named Justin. And when I say liked.. I mean we LOVED him.. and fought over him.. and tried to convince each other that he was really in love with MEEEE and not YOU! Stupid head. So this one time I had this brilliant idea that I was going to write a love letter.. from Justin.. to Me.. telling me of his undying love for me.. and that he wanted to run away together. JUST TO MAKE BRITTANY JEALOUS! So I wrote it. It was brilliant. Even at such a young age I just had a way with words. But then I was finished and there was irrigation outside.. so I decided to go make a beaver dam in the gutter with the overflowing water. I traveled down the street where the most water was.. gathering sticks and leaves to stop the flow.. when my Dad stuck his head out the door and hollered for me. WELL I wasn't finished playing yet, so I just pretended I didn't hear him. I didn't think much of it. ... until the next day at school. It was recess time and we were all running and frolicking about when I saw Justin at the drinking fountain. So of course I ran over to "get a drink" and say HELLO. But as soon as he saw me coming.. he ran away. And he just kept running away whenever I'd try to talk to him. I went home downtrodden and sorrowful. When my dad came home... all was revealed. My father had found the note I'd written the day before.. and tried to call me in to talk to me about it. But when I didn't come in HE CALLED JUSTIN'S DAD AND ASKED HIM ABOUT IT. Who then talked to Justin about it. Imagine my mortification. You can't. It's too much. Everything turned out okay though. Justin and I are still friends. Or we WERE until he abandoned me for a mission. It's cool, I'm proud of him. And he's awesome. And we even laughed about that a few times... not until about 9 years after it happened though. HA! Good times.

The end. :)

So this one time...

I fainted. At work. AKA Walgreens. In front of people. While I was straightening some shampoo on a shelf. It was a hard day. Getting stuff ready for school has been really really hard. I don't remember it being this hard signing up for BYU Idaho... which is very discouraging. I wasn't feeling so good today.. as in I was feeling sick! So that didn't help. And then I got to work... and got worse.. and worse and couldn't stop crying. And then I passed out. But then I got to come home and watch Aristocats and eat quesadillas and drink milk and sit on the couch and relax! Which was grand. But overall.... it was a rather emotional day.

I was thinking today about why I blog. Honest to goodness, I do it solely for selfish reasons. I love to write because it's therapeutic for me. Whenever I have an excess of emotion... it's easier for me to write it down and just get it all out. I've never been good with words. I have a very hard time saying out loud the perfect speech I just wrote in my head... the speech that said exactly what I meant and how I felt in a perfectly sensible way. When I try and transfer that speech from my brain to my vocal chords and out my mouth... it gets jumbled. Kind of like ordering a hamburger and shake... and they have all the PERFECT mouthwatering ingredients in the kitchen... but then the kitchen somehow puts the fixings for the hamburger in the blender and the ice cream on the bun... you get what you ordered... just in a really disgusting, mixed up way. I have a feeling that was a terrible metaphor... but get over it. I've had a hard day! And I may have bumped my head... don't judge me.

However, some things I really just can't blog about. So I'll journal them. So I can still remember the things I've done and the lessons I've learned. I suppose I'll make that my words of wisdom for the day... because I'm tired and I want to go to bed. Document your life. Take pictures. Write down memories. Record revelations and lessons learned. We're supposed to remember the good and the bad. Hopefully more good than bad... but the bad so we can keep moving forward and getting better and better! I struggle with a lot of things. I'm not the best person. I'm not always happy. But looking back on times when I was better... and when I was happier... gives me hope that I can be that way again someday.. and even better.. and happier. The end. :)

Holy FIFTIETH post!!!

Sweet mother of Bambi... I have 50 whole posts on my blog. I'm so cool. For serious. I'm so proud of myself for being a for realsies blogger!

I really wasn't sure what to write about.... But I was thinking about it at work... and I had a few ideas come to me... so I'll just write down what I wrote on the piece of paper.. and then explain them all. Because they're all FUNNY! And awesome. Okay here we go!!

Adrian-Pharmacy-hit on- haven't showered in 3 days??- also sports bra! no boobs. hilar.

Crazy drunken lady. Laughing at abusive bf. no idea what talking about.

I love the smell of dirt and cold.

I think I'm attracted to big noses.

Okay. Adrian. He is a boy that works back in the pharmacy as a tech. I see him look at me. You know.. that LOOK. And he always tries to come to my register whenever he buys something. Seriously. There can be 3 people in line at my register and he WAITS. Good times. Well today he came over... just to chat. Weird. He asked when I was transferring over to pharmacy (because that was the plan before I decided to move to Gilbert) and I said I'm not! I'm moving to Gilbert. And then he made a sad face and then proceeded to try and flirt with me.. which he has not braved before. It was hilarious. He was super awkward and kept stuttering and blushing, however, he is attractive so I forgave him. :) But then he dropped the f bomb and I was all, "Oh no he di-int!" which kind of shattered all the hopes and dreams he once had of us being wed and making hot babies together. But it was super funny because I had not showered in.... seriously... 3 days. I know. Disgusting. Don't judge. I didn't even see anyone this weekend!! ... and then on top of not showering... I was wearing a sports bra... meaning you couldn't tell I have boobs. AND I was wearing leftover make up from... Friday. He just HAD to hit on me on the day I was feeling freaking NASTY. Oh well. I'm over it.

And then there was the crazy tipsy lady who came in looking for some more booz... but we didn't have the kind she likes anyway... so her boyfriend just went to the bathroom and she starts rambling about how he doesn't respect women and just walks all over them but she was laughing and just rolling her eyes like she loved it. I was confused. And she just kept talking and talking as I checked out other customers... it didn't phase her... I don't think she took a breath for 4 minutes straight. It was amazing. And I had no idea what she was talking about. Weird.

And then this lady came and bought some potting soil. And it smelled SOOOO GOOD! I wanted to go out and garden RIGHT THEN. Heavens. It smelled aMAZing. I wanted that dirty soil under my fingernails. And then I started thinking about how I also love the smell of cold. And sometimes I go in the cooler at work just so I can smell the cold. That is the one thing I really miss about Rexburg... the cold smell. And if you don't know what cold smell I'm talking about... don't be jealous. You have to be SPECIAL to smell it. Okay, you can be jealous. :)

And last.. for tonight... I think I'm attracted to big noses. This guy came into Walgreens today and I said to myself, He is very attractive and tall and good bodied and if he ended up having a dashing personality, I would make out with him. And then he turned to the side and his nose was like, 'Woahhh Nelly! I'm a mountain growing out of his face!' But it was somehow hot and I still wanted to make out with him... if he had a dashing personality. And then I realized all the boys I've liked since.... a long time... have had fairly to very large noses. And I LIKE it. It was a nice revelation. Now I don't have to be weird and slightly awkward when a boy I like has a big nose... I'll just OWN the fact that I LIKE it. Awesome.

And there was more on the list... but I'm too tired to blog it now... So you'll have to wait!! Dreadfully sorry.

I'm sorry it was such a lamesauce 50th post. The 100th will be much better and funnier and awesomer, I promise! Maybe by then I'll have a boy to post funny things about and we'll have funny stories and jolly good times. But for now Walgreens stories will have to do!

EXCEPT!!! For my words of wisdom for the day: Have faith. Have faith in yourself. In your dreams. In your abilities. In the people around you. In your family. In your friends. In your religion. In your Christ. In your God! I think the world has too little faith. I think there is more good out there than we think. It's easier to focus on the bad for some reason instead of the good. But if we can just remember to have a little FAITH that people are generally good, that we CAN do great things, and that God WILL help us achieve our greatest potential... we'll be happy beyond measure and everything we can dream of will be possible. I realize that was incredibly sappy and Oprah-esque.... but it's true nonetheless. The end. :)

Another one?? Whaaa?

I know, I know. Two posts in one day? What am I thinking? I'll tell you.

I GOT TO SEE FIREWORKS AFTER ALL!! :) It made me mucho grande happy! They were awesome of course. Fireworks are definitely near the tippy top of my favorites list. I went to my aunt's house.. that I'm moving in with and watched them with her family. It was a very very nice evening. :) I took Jamie with me and she had a blast playing with all the little kids. When we first got there my aunt's two big dogs literally scared the pee and poo out of her.... HA! But then she got used to it and ate up the attention!

Also I love Lost. The tv show.

Also I'm really excited for my family to come home tomorrow...I'm a little lonely in the house all by myself.

Also I had an older and wiser friend tell me to find a boy and use him shamelessly to get over Hairy Ben. I'll keep you updated!

Also I want to make myself a cup of tea right now. Herbal! Don't worry.

Also I realized today that I have 2 random places in my hair that grow out as perfect ringlets. The rest is STRAIGHT as a pair of 70's Bell Bottom Jeans (which I realize are not that straight... but my hair IS straight but flips out at the ends... just like bell bottom jeans.... anyway). The ringlety spots are a lovely chunk right in the middle of my bangs... which is inconvenient... and another chunk at the bottom that always falls out of my ponytail. What the random, right?

Also I found this quote that I absolutely ADORE. I have no idea where it's from or who said it. But I can't WAIT to feel this way about someone. :)

"There is just something about you that makes me want to sing... maybe it's because you are music itself."

Uhm.. HELLO. Awesome, right? I love it. A lot.

And I have more wisdom for the day. I know, "How can she be this wise at such a young age," you ask. It's a gift. ;) But ANYWAY. Spend time with family. Lots of time. I mean, I know it's important for me to get out there with new people to mix and mingle and know people so I can date and make decisions and find that special someone ... or whatever. But there's just something about spending time with people you KNOW you'll have FOREVER no matter what... that just makes me happy. The end. :)

Just a bunch of random things on my mind...

1. I finally watched The Testaments for the first time today.... uhm. New favorite movie?? I think so! It was soooo good! I cried. I swear. The only two things that make me cry are the Spirit and thinking about all the Savior has done for me... and boys. But boys is a dumb reason. But yeah. The movie was fantastic. I loooved how they paralleled the two stories of the people in the Americas and the people in Israel and what BOTH their relationships to Christ were.

2. I had to take care of irrigation this morning. And Jamie's favorite toy is the big pink fuzzy rabbit named Larry. Well, he was in the middle of the yard when I turned the water on. And Jamie was having a bunch of fun in the water of course!! My baby's first irrigation.. so fun! But then she saw Larry was gonna get wet so she grabbed him really fast and put him on the porch.. then went out and continued to frolic in the water. It was stinking adorable.

3. I'm kinda bummed I didn't get to see any fireworks this year... but I was making money.. so I can't complain too much. And there's always next year!! And there are more important things to remember on Independence Day. Like all the sacrifice and courage it takes to make sure this country stays free. I really am grateful for that.

4. I have eaten a ridiculous amount of ice cream this weekend. On Monday I am starting a no sugar diet! Holla! Wish me luck!

5. Now that I'm not dating anyone... no one texts me anymore. Tragic. No love for me.

6. I love playing the piano and singing. It's the best. I want to be better at the piano.. but I am so DANG undisciplined. I will try to be better about practicing. I think I might try an anti social phase for a while. Have some ME time. That sounds quite good.

7. I am in a book club... and instead of discussing the books.. we are going to act out scenes from them or watch a movie or SOMETHING. I'm kind of excited... but I really need to start reading the first book... I'm a slacker.

8. I have even more ice cream... and I'm going to eat it. Tonight. Before my diet starts.

9. Staying alone in my house freaks me out to no end. I woke up freaking out last night because I had a dream a creeper came in my house while I was sleeping and raped me. Uhm. No freaking bueno. But I got over it. Don't worry. :)

10. I like life. And loving. And making mistakes and learning how to do better next time. I like growing. It's very hard sometimes... but it's worth it.

Words of wisdom for the day? Make goals. Constructive, attainable, bettering goals. They make life more exciting! The end. :)

I need....

.. an "I like.." post. :)

I like meeting new people. I like going on dates. I like eating ice cream. I like playing games. I like winning games. I like painting my nails. I like a good cup of herbal tea. I like tuna fish sandwiches. I just like sandwiches, actually. I like water. I LOVE milk.. especially of the chocolate variety. I like making good choices. I like being warm. I like swimming and smelling like chlorine. I like doing yoga and how I feel after I do yoga. I like flip flops. I like no shoes at all even better. I like blogging. I like music and finding the perfect song for your mood. I like sleep.

So I'm going to bed! But my words of wisdom for the day!! I just remembered something AWESOME that my EFY counsellor Emily told me! She said whenever she was feeling angry... she would allow herself to listen to ONE angry song.. and then switch to church music to help herself get over it! SO I think I'll try that! Especially getting over this whole Hairy Ben thing... and just feeling down about some stuff and being angry with myself for not being as good as I can be! I'll listen to ONE song that matches my bad mood, be it angry or sad or scared or inadequate... and then I'll listen to church music! Because church music brings the spirit.. and the spirit brings hope for better things. And hope is a VERY powerful thing. :) The end. :)

It's late...

.. and I should go to bed because I have work at 8:30 tomorrow... but I want to blog. I don't really know about what.. we'll see what comes to me.

Hairy Ben and I are still friends. I decided to give it a try. But it's still really hard sometimes. Other times it's as easy as anything though. I just wish I could get over it already. It's super annoying.

I've decided that my car, James, is a hypochondriac. He is ALWAYS getting sick and making me take him to the doctor and spend lots of money. It's a bit ridiculous... and the only punishment I can inflict is letting him run low on gas... which he HATES.. but that makes it scary for me too.. because the gas light is broken.. HA! It's terrible.

I really really need to clean my room. I just really really don't want to. I should be a neater person... someday I have to get married... and if my husband turns out to be cleaner than me.. that'll be a problem.

I don't really wanna get married anytime soon.. even though when I look at engagement and wedding pictures my heart aches a little for it...

I just want to be in love. For the first time. I've never been in love.. and I just want to know what it FEELS like. I love emotions... and I haven't experienced the BEST one yet. I'll get there someday.. someone has to fall in love with ME first though... which could be a problem. I'm kind of insane.

I am having a movie night to watch While You Were Sleeping and eat Ben and Jerry's with the lovely Maddi tomorrow night and I am excited beyond reason. I love that girl and I love that movie and I SO need a girls night it's not even funny.

I guess that's it.

My words of wisdom for the day is this: Get some sleep. Sleep is healthy. And you feel better if you do it. The end.